Daydreams

What a wonderful week we have had since Xander got over the worst of his illness!  Granted, he gave it to me (and Brice), but still.  I had no classes, no tests, no work, only job applications and cleaning for showings.  It is amazing how easy it is to get all of his lessons in when we have most of the day, heck we could add more.  Getting that many days of uninterrupted time with my baby is so calming and peaceful.  Makes me content even when I am not feeling great.  He has been enjoying it also.  He is on much more of a schedule, which is so nice!  I can actually kind of plan around his naps.  He is such a happy little guy.

I know I am a single mom.  I have school to finish and then will have to work hard to provide a decent life for us.  However, it is still my deepest desire to be home with my child and have more (and foster care at some point in the future, but that's a whole other story).  I have a fantastic day care provider, but she isn't me and can't possibly love him as much as I do.  Additionally, I've tossed around the idea of homeschooling for years.  Josh and I had even talked about the possibility of offering to home school Madelynn. Now that my child is here, I want to at least attempt it all the more.  No one will care about him or has as much invested in his education as I will.  I know it is a foolish desire for a single mom, but I keep praying that I can figure something out.  Maybe I can work three twelve hour days and do some sort of home school swap with another mother.  Luckily, I have 3.5-4 years before I want to start!